APTnovel Chapter 134 I Don't Want to Die
Chapter 134 I Don't Want to Die
chapter 134
As soon as he finished speaking, Lu Yu disappeared from everyone's sight once again.
Meng Youcheng did not go downstairs. Looking at the blood-soaked Xu Shunming on the ground, he felt an indescribable sense of suffocation. This feeling was very familiar. He wanted to help, but he was powerless to do so.
Like one rainy night, he seemed to have had this feeling before, kneeling on the ground in the pouring rain, kowtowing to people and begging them for help, but no one was willing to help him.
His younger sister was in critical condition and desperately needed money, so he had no choice but to kneel down and beg for help, but he couldn't get any money at all.
A sense of déjà vu washed over him, making it impossible for him to face the situation. He kept swallowing, staring blankly at Xu Shunming on the ground, his heart filled with turmoil and unease.
Fu Lian had already run over and was the first to help the commander up. The other warriors, including Xu Guo, followed suit.
Xu Shunming's body was riddled with holes, with hardly a good spot to be seen. His eyes were slightly closed, and he was breathing weakly, as if the slightest carelessness would cause him to disappear completely.
The boy hugged him, stunned on the spot.
We can roughly guess that this might be his first time feeling frustrated. After all, he is an invincible villain. It must be very painful to feel powerless for the first time.
Xu Guo said anxiously, "What are you standing there for? Hurry up and carry him back to camp! Are you going to leave him here and wait for his body to get cold before collecting it?!"
The remaining warriors were still crying out, "Our commander...!"
Upon hearing this, they rushed forward, snatched the boy from his arms, and carried him back...
Fu Lian, now without anyone in his arms, stood up blankly, without uttering a single word.
Meng Youcheng stood atop the city wall, his gaze fixed on Xu Shunming until he disappeared. Suddenly, a wave of nausea washed over him, and he turned and vomited…
At that moment, he felt an indescribable discomfort.
……
This time, the commander did not recover as quickly as usual. The wound was clearly deeper than before, so the recovery would be slower.
He had been unconscious for two whole days, his face as pale as paper, his lips dry. Meng Youcheng kept moistening his lips with a damp cotton swab, his fingers trembling, his expression intriguing.
On the third day, Xu Shunming finally woke up and let out a long sigh of relief...
His expression remained exhausted, his eyes vacant and lifeless, like a living dead.
Fu Lian asked softly, "Are you alright?"
Xu Shunming turned his head to look at him, nodded, and said, "Mm."
Fu Lian's expression remained uneasy. "About this matter..."
"Just leave it alone, ha..."
Xu Shunming interrupted him, then sneered, "I'm destined to die soon, there's no need to waste your time and energy on me. Everyone has their own destiny, and you're only here on the way to A3 region..."
"It won't be long before I hand over the token to you. Your most important task is to get through this safely. This matter, my life or death, and the future of region A2 are none of your concern..."
"I'm destined to die. That deer-headed killer with the Heavenly Blade has latched onto me. No matter what, he'll eat my flesh. This is a plan he's already devised. It doesn't matter. At worst, we'll die together. I'll have completed my mission..."
Meng Youcheng was stunned. "What do you mean?"
"I know I'm destined to lose to him and be eaten by him. Rather than that, I'd rather die with him. I take a slow-acting poison every day. Now my flesh is poisonous. If he dares to eat it, he will surely die."
Fu Lian was stunned. "But you..."
Just then, Xiao Zhi came out from behind. "Commander, he has taken a slow-acting poison. Even if he isn't killed by Shikaba, he won't live past 50..."
Xu Shunming stared blankly at the ceiling, muttering to himself, "50 years old... there are still more than 20 years left. I can do so many things. If I can live to that time, even if I die, I should have no regrets, right?"
"Perhaps by then, the mutants will have long since disappeared, and I will be able to see A-Quan. We might spend a few happy years together, living a peaceful and carefree life in a secluded place."
Everyone was stunned by his words.
He continued in a low voice, "What a pity, I won't live to be 50. In a month, no, in a couple of weeks, I might pass away and never see him again. Why was I so rigid before..."
"I had so much to say to him, but I thought there would be plenty of time and I'd have a chance. Now, the chance is gone. I'm about to die, and these words buried in my heart will never see the light of day again. Sigh..."
He sighed heavily, "Living is so tiring..."
A moment later, tears welled up in her eyes, and her voice choked involuntarily, "But, I just want to live."
……
"Is there really no way for us?"
Fu Lian's tone was also dejected. He glanced stiffly at Meng Youcheng, sighed, and said, "Are we just supposed to watch him die like this?"
Meng Youcheng wanted to escape this question because it was too similar to his own, which made him feel uncomfortable and even breathless, as if he would be crushed to death by the heavy stone on his body at any moment.
He swallowed hard, but didn't say anything.
"Major General, are we... really completely without any options?"
Fu Lian kept asking, perhaps in his heart, at this moment, the only one who could come up with a solution was the powerful and invincible Major General in front of him.
"I have no idea."
Meng Youcheng's voice was so weak that it was almost inaudible.
Fu Lian stared at his lips, knowing what he was saying. After hesitating for a long time, she said, "It's okay, I don't know either. It's like a dead end; I can't find the way out."
Meng Youcheng kept his head down, not daring to look at him...
My breathing became increasingly rapid, and I don't know how many times I swallowed my saliva, but I just couldn't get enough. My mouth was constantly secreting saliva, which made me feel very uncomfortable and irritable.
Xu Guo wasn't here, and he didn't know what to do, so he could only do his best to help the residents.
They have a good leader, and they hope they can remember him forever, and never forget his name, even if he leaves one day.
Fu Lian suddenly reached out a hand and grabbed Meng Youcheng...
The man shuddered and tried to break free, but it was no use. The boy held on tightly, giving him no chance to escape.
He wanted to say "What?" but he was afraid. Fu Lian asked himself what he should do.
So he could only lower his head and say nothing.
Fu Lian held his fingers, rubbing them one by one, slowly massaging and gently caressing each line. He didn't look at him anymore, but gazed into the distance, gently touching his hand...
"Wow, their fingers are so long..."
He suddenly spoke.
Meng Youcheng instinctively replied with a single word, "Mm."
"They say the longer your fingers, the stronger you are, you know? And you have an Adam's apple, which is also proof of male strength, and your high nose bridge, how old do you think you are?"
Meng Youcheng was immediately stunned. "Huh?"
The boy continued, "You haven't shown it to me, is it because it's too big and you're afraid it will scare me?"
The man looked up at him...
No, you... Weren't we just having a pretty serious conversation? How did it suddenly turn into this?
"I……"
Fu Lian gripped his hand tightly, grinning shamelessly, and said, "Let's see...?"
"No way! Get out!"
Meng Youcheng was immediately somewhat indignant...
Fu Lian moved closer, gently bumping into him with his body. "Don't be stingy. It's not like you'll lose anything by looking. I've shown you so many times already, you have to show me once, right? There's nothing to be shy about. We're both men, haven't we shown each other our 'brothers' before?"
"I……"
Meng Youcheng was immediately furious. "Can't you be serious for once?"
"I'm very serious..."
Fu Lian thought for a moment, "You wouldn't happen to be... pink, would you?"
Meng Youcheng was completely dumbfounded. "Huh?"
"I'm talking about the color, it's not really pink, is it?"
Meng Youcheng pondered for a moment, "Does this color exist?"
"Of course there is, haven't you seen it?"
Meng Youcheng curled his lip. "I'm not crazy, why would I look at this if I have nothing better to do? Besides, as far as I know, all I've seen so far seems to be only one color, right?"
Fu Lian patted him on the shoulder, "Ignorant."
"It wasn't you..."
The boy smiled and continued, "He's an ignorant old man."
"But……?"
Fu Lian smiled. "Actually, it's good that you haven't seen it. It means your private life is very safe, very much in line with your personality, and you have great potential to be my partner. Not bad, not bad, keep it up."
Meng Youcheng stood up. "What's wrong with you all of a sudden?"
Fu Lian looked at him and said, "I know this is a big blow to you. After all, you are the invincible, strongest major general. This must be the first time you've encountered something so helpless. I've also figured it out: we'll help if we can, and if we really can't help, then so be it..."
"Everyone has their own destiny, and you should respect that. Defying fate will only make things worse. It's better to let it pass naturally and not worry about anything. Don't feel guilty anymore..."
The boy patted him on the shoulder. "You're getting wrinkles. You're already old, and your face will be full of wrinkles in the future. I won't dislike you, but other people will definitely laugh at you. What am I supposed to do then? Should I comfort you, or join them in mocking you?"